My Own Little World

 

There is a place, a couple places actually, where I go to forget about all of my worries and all of the world’s troubles. As soon as I am there, my troubles melt away. I don’t think about what worries my mind nor do I think about what is going on in the news. For a short time, the outside world no longer matters. It’s almost like I am in my own little world with the doors shut to the outside. Nothing else can make it’s way inside and until I open those doors to leave, nothing can make it’s way outside. While I am there, I am in a state of bliss, happiness, and peace. There are unseen, loving arms around this place letting me know everything will be okay.

Being the type of person that worries all the time and contemplates every possible outcome, a place or two like this, is what I need. It releases the tension inside me. For a while, I am able to let go of all the stress on my shoulders or all the stress that I think is on my shoulders! I would describe these places like being in Heaven, but since I have not been to Heaven, yet, I will say it is like being on vacation. There are no worries, troubles, or stress. Only happiness, peace, love, and a state of relaxation exists. When I leave this place, there is a longing to go back. It is almost like a piece of my life is missing until I return. Once back at this place, life makes sense again. I feel like I have all the answers and nothing can pull me down.

Everyone needs a place or two like this. When the outside world consumes us, we all need a place to kick our feet up and let go. If I am not able to physically be at these places, I go there in my mind, if only for a little while. I urge us all to find a place or two that makes us feel that nothing else matters. It could be when you are with your loved one(s) you feel this way, at a beautiful park, looking at a sunrise or sunset, a place you volunteer at, or maybe it is going for a walk or a drive. Whatever & wherever it is, go there often. If you don’t have a place like this, I urge you to find one. Doing so will only help you, not hurt you.

 

 

Finding My Strength: Where Does Your’s Come From?

Strength-Picture-Quote

credit to addicted2success.com

I am starting a new adventure in my life and what may not seem like a big deal to some, it is a big deal to me. I am volunteering with a local, three person hospice house. After working with hospice patients indirectly in the past, I have never worked directly with them. Now is my chance to do something I have always wanted to do. I won’t only be part of a team helping others, but they will help me too. I am looking forward to starting this new phase in my life. I feel like my whole life has built me up to this point to be able to do this mentally and physically. What I have gone through and dealt with in my past, has prepared me for this new phase in my life. It is a challenge I am excited about starting. It something I feel I was called to do. There is not much in my life where I feel I am called on by God to do, but this is one thing I feel very strongly about doing.

I was asked today, in not so many words, how I deal with the losses in my life. In my almost thirteen years of marriage, I have not only lost four babies, but two brothers, grandparents, and my in-laws in the same year. What marriage can survive that is beyond me. Many “someone’s” are watching over my husband and I. The answer that came out of my mouth was one, talking. Talking to someone I trust is a must. If I don’t let it out, I would scream. Two, writing. Writing is another way to let it out when I don’t feel like talking. Three, volunteering and helping others. I realized in my 36 years of life that helping others is an important way to give back and not only make yourself feel better, but help the other person feel better. It is a win-win situation. The last answer that came out of my mouth has to do with my parents and grandparents. I know many people feel this way about their parents and that is great! However, three of the people that I look up to in my life are my mom, dad, and my maternal grandma. My grandma passed away in April 2003, but she is someone that to this day, I look up to. Those are the three top people in my life that I see strength in and where my strength comes from. They are very, very strong people and I can’t express that enough. If it was not for them, I would have given up on life a long, long time ago.

I hope everyone out there has someone or someone’s they look up to for strength. I hope there is someone out there keeps you going and keeps you from giving up. I have overcame a lot in my life that I didn’t think I could. I have moved on and moved past a lot of things that would have done anyone else in. It is time for me to give credit to where credit is due, which is God, my parents and my grandparents. It is also time for me to give back to the community. I have found strength that I never thought I had and it is time to use it!